no one could understand me better than myself

7 months ago, he left me here, at that building
and i promised to him not to cry when he went back to his place
but i couldn't keep my promise
i cried when i left that building
it was hurt, you know

7 moths is a loooong time
yea, of course i felt lonely
but time goes by and i went to college
new friends, new surroundings, new name, new crazy experience, new subjects, new freak people, everything was new and all change

he always asked about my life as a new student in college
and i always told him about anything that i've been through
and maybe, today, i wasn't as strong as before
i cried a lot today
yes, you can call me sloppy
but you didn't understand what i've been through this couple days
and it makes me miss the past
i miss the way we talked about something and in the end, we laughed at it
yea, my friend can make me laugh, but he's not him

no one could understand me better than myself
he's right. "i could only explain my feelings if you experienced it firsthand to understand it," he said.
so now, you can call me sloppy, childish or etc just the way you like
it's not a problem to me anymore
cuz this is me, this is myself
and if you don't like me,
get out of my life!
i still have a lot of friends that love me just the way i am
and i believe, he accept me as his best friend or maybe more than best friend with all my badness and goodness habits


moi,
-ekanakecil-

(empty)

hello world!

it's been forever since my last post. yeah, i'm busy with my college thing here! exhausted but fun!

i found some new friends, new teacher, new uniform (uniform is a must in my college!) and of course new surrounding :)

sometimes, i miss my high school things and i miss my luvly DPR United so much. and also, i really miss talking to Mr. Yatchie (if u read this Mr. Yatchie, dont laugh!)

i dont know, i feel empty during these day. maybe it because of my busyness in my new college but i'm not sure. i have a lot of new friends here but still empty. really. something is missing but i dont know what.

emptyness..

done.







-ekanakecil

sorry, i have to go

people,
i have to go
so i'm not going to post some new story here for a while, maybe for a week or worst, for a month :)

sorry guys :')


cheers,
ekanakecil

when you love someone..

i love you but it’s not so easy to make you here with me
i wanna touch and hold you forever
but you’re still in my dream
and i can’t stand to wait ‘till night is coming to my life
but i still have a time to break a silence

when you love someone
just be brave to say that you want him / her to be with you
when you hold your love
don’t ever let it go
or you will loose your chance
to make your dreams come true…

i used to hide and watch you from a distance and i knew you realized
i was looking for a time to get closer at least to say… “hello”
and i can’t stand to wait your love is coming to my life

and i never thought that i’m so strong
i stuck on you and wait so long
but when love comes it can’t be wrong
don’t ever give up just try and try to get what you want
cause love will find the way….

luv,
mademoiselleAngie :)

SHOUT!

SHOUT whenever you want to SHOUT!
if you have a sinking feeling
coz you have a very bad score on your exam,
or your mom always yelling at you,
or your friends don't stop talking
or your teacher punish you in front of the class coz the dog ate your homework,
or your sister/brother bother you when you sleep,
or your dad doesn't listen to you,
or you stuck in the middle of freaks people,
or your boyfriend/girlfriend is cheating on you,
or your best friend didn't trust you anymore,
or you loose your lollipop,
or your crush become an item with somebody else,
or you are in love with someone who shouldn't be loved,
or you don't have enough money to buy a new car,
or you are getting divorce with your husband/wife,
or your parents didn't take care of you,
or your classmate always cheating your homework/exams
or your parents getting divorce,
or your neighbor didn't return your grass shears,
or you didn't pass the exam,
or your dad always force you to go to a university, in fact you don't want it,
or your best friend shoot your butt,
or you are curious 'bout your crushes problems,
or your friend stole your favorite items,
or you upset coz you can't always get what you want,
or even you don't love yourself,
just SHOUT until you satisfied..
i know, SHOUT doesn't solve anything
but SHOUT can make you better from your bad feelings :)

i SHOUT when i need to SHOUT,
and today, i SHOUT coz i'm happy and lucky to know you.. :)

Monday, July 13th 2009

( this post should be published in July 2009 )


with love,
ekanakecil

it's all about CANADA..!

yep, it's all about CANADA! you all may be wondering why i choose Canada for the topic this time. well, first of all, i wanna see SNOW! yeah, i live in Indonesia so i can't see snow around here because Indonesia is located in equator line and countries with equator line are never snowy. secondly, i have a best friend in Canada and since that, my passion to go to Canada is on FIRE..!! he told me everything about Canada. the beautiful scenery, the weather, the history, the culture, the people around there and etc.

well, the thing that makes me very interested to Canada is the maple leaf. Canada use maple leaf as the symbol of their flag. why? because so many maple leaf trees grow in Canada and Jacquez Viger, the first mayor of Montreal, described the maple leaf as "the king of our forest; the symbol of the Canadian people." Click here for more information :)



i have some maple leaf pictures from my best friend in Canada. he gave me 3 maple leaves when he came to Indonesia. well, i'd asked him before to bring some maple leaves. i remember what he said at that time. "you are too late to ask me for maple leaves. it's winter already!". but, he kept searching maple leaves for me and he said, "hei guess what, i found 3 maple leaves for you, but two of them are yellow and one green. if you asked me earlier for the maple leaf, maybe i'd found the red one". but it's okay. i'm glad that you didn't forget to bring my maple leaves :)



and this is me with all my laminated maple leaves :P ( i didn't want my maple leaves wilted, so i take his advice to laminate all my maple leaves )







he also said, in Canada, they usually celebrate Indonesia's Independence Day for Indonesian people who lives in Canada. They held a ceremony and celebrate it with all Indonesian people who lives there. and this is some pictures of the ceremony. i took it from his FB.







and this is a birthday cake:





so many beautiful scenery in Canada, but most of them show the beauty view of the old city with tall and big buildings and its structure is very high artistic values. it makes Canada become one of tourist attraction in Canada. last Easter Holiday, my best friend in Canada went tour to Kingston, Quebec, Ottawa, Montreal and Thousand Island and he brought me some beautiful pictures from each place. i'm so jealous to him, i wanna go there too :( this is some good pictures that he took:

Kingston


Parliament Hill Ottawa



and this is the pictures from Quebec Old City ( i couldn't find another picture better which no my best friend in it )


Quebec City
**HHAHHAHAHAHHAAA..!!! i always laughing when i see this picture! hahhahahhhahhaaa









**again, i couldn't find another picture better to show you guys 'bout Quebec City



Thousand Island ( its sounds like a ketchup or mayonnaise brand, doesn't it? hehhehee :P )



Montreal


that's all i want to share with you guys 'bout Canada, hope you like it :)
and i have a promise to my best friend that one day, i'll go to Canada to see and play with him :D

BIG thanks to: Paul, my best friend and also my best brother :)

with love,
ekanakecil&mademoiselle

this is it! my new blog! :D

hei guys!
i'm happy cuz my new blog has already done!
and i hope you guys will love my story :)

cheers,
ekanakecil.A