no one could understand me better than myself

7 months ago, he left me here, at that building
and i promised to him not to cry when he went back to his place
but i couldn't keep my promise
i cried when i left that building
it was hurt, you know

7 moths is a loooong time
yea, of course i felt lonely
but time goes by and i went to college
new friends, new surroundings, new name, new crazy experience, new subjects, new freak people, everything was new and all change

he always asked about my life as a new student in college
and i always told him about anything that i've been through
and maybe, today, i wasn't as strong as before
i cried a lot today
yes, you can call me sloppy
but you didn't understand what i've been through this couple days
and it makes me miss the past
i miss the way we talked about something and in the end, we laughed at it
yea, my friend can make me laugh, but he's not him

no one could understand me better than myself
he's right. "i could only explain my feelings if you experienced it firsthand to understand it," he said.
so now, you can call me sloppy, childish or etc just the way you like
it's not a problem to me anymore
cuz this is me, this is myself
and if you don't like me,
get out of my life!
i still have a lot of friends that love me just the way i am
and i believe, he accept me as his best friend or maybe more than best friend with all my badness and goodness habits


moi,
-ekanakecil-

wisdom of the soul

guys, these are some advices and knowledge about our life. read this! hope you'll enjoy it :)



1. no one can RUIN your day without your permission
2. most people will be about as HAPPY as they decide to be
3. others can stop you TEMPORARILY, but only you can do it permanently
4. whatever you are willing to put up with is EXACTLY what you will have
5. SUCCESS stops when you do
6. when your ship comes in, make sure you are willing to UNLOAD it
7. you will NEVER "have it all together"
8. life is a JOURNEY, not a destination. enjoy the trip! :)
9. the biggest LIE on the planet: "When i get what i want, i will be happy".
10. the best way to escape your problem is to SOLVE it
11. i've learned that ultimately "TAKERS" lose and "GIVERS" win
12. life's PRECIOUS moments: don't have value, unless they are shared
13. if you don't START, it's certain you won't arrive
14. we often FEAR the thing we want the most
15. yesterday was the deadline for all COMPLAINS
16. look for opportunities, not guarantees
17. life is what's coming not WHAT WAS
18. success is GETTING UP one more time
19. now is the most INTERESTING time of all
20. when things go WRONG, don't go with them
21. sometimes the majority only means that all the FOOLS are in the same side
22. a person who asks a QUESTION might be a fool for five minutes, but a person who doesn't ask is a fool forever
23. a BEST FRIEND is like a four leaf clover, hard to find and lucky to have
24. i don't have to attend every ARGUMENT i'm invited to
25. our EYES are placed in front because it is more important to look ahead than to look behind



cheer up,
mademoiselleAngie- :)



source: somebody on tumblr

where are you?

things are different now
you disappear, again
i don't know, maybe you are busy with your work
or busy with your life
but can you give me a "hello"?
you broke your promise to me, not to lost contact
did i make a mistake to you?
i really miss talking to you
i really miss your joke
and you just like disappear
no news
where are you?
has your life change?
i feel empty


-ekanakecil

special from me and Disney to you.. :D

Mr. Farbud Yatchie, this is a special note from me, mom and dad, gina, dinda and a little bit with help from Mr. Disney for your special birthday! :)




Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday, Happy Happy Birthday To You!
i want to do something special for you,
it's your birthday, and you're special too
so i brought some guabs from the outter guab zoo
They honk and squak and sing just for you...
Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday, Happy Happy Birthday To You!

open your eyes, here's a present
more crazy creatures, don't worry they're pleasant
they're upside down weets on inside out swings,
they do things backwords, and backwords they sing...
Yppah Yadhtrib, Yppah Yadhtrib, Yppah Yppah Yadhtrib Ot Ouy!
which means:
Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday, Happy Happy Birthday To You!

there's a party, a party today
A once a year occasion!
A party, it's comin' your way,
your birthday celebration!
the grandest present I've saved 'til the end,
'cause you're the bestest of all of my friends
here's Mickey (Oh, Hi) and Donald (Hellllo) And Goofy too (Ahee-uh)
to celebrate your birthday with you...
Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday, Happy Happy Birthday To You!

i wanted to tell you in my own special way,
but you're extra special, so have a great day!
Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday, Happy Happy Birthday To You!



dad said: "panjang umur!"
mom said: "sukses terus ya Pauuuulll..."
gina said: "tambah baik, tambah ganteng. mudah-mudahan bisa ke Indo lagi :)"
dinda said: "met ultah abang!"
and i said: "Happy Bornday! Jah bless! jangan lupa berdoa di saat apa pun. mau susah kek, mau seneng kek, tetep berdoa dan bersyukur ya baaaanng... and keep smile :) *big hug's coming to your waaaaayyy....* cheer up, boy! :D"




Have a great Birthday there :)

group hugs!
-from: ekanakecil and family

(empty)

hello world!

it's been forever since my last post. yeah, i'm busy with my college thing here! exhausted but fun!

i found some new friends, new teacher, new uniform (uniform is a must in my college!) and of course new surrounding :)

sometimes, i miss my high school things and i miss my luvly DPR United so much. and also, i really miss talking to Mr. Yatchie (if u read this Mr. Yatchie, dont laugh!)

i dont know, i feel empty during these day. maybe it because of my busyness in my new college but i'm not sure. i have a lot of new friends here but still empty. really. something is missing but i dont know what.

emptyness..

done.







-ekanakecil

sorry, i have to go

people,
i have to go
so i'm not going to post some new story here for a while, maybe for a week or worst, for a month :)

sorry guys :')


cheers,
ekanakecil

15 things to remember :)

1) at least 5 people in this world love you so much. they would die for you
2) at least 15 people in this world love you in some way
3) the only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you
4) a smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you
5) every night, someone thinks about you before they go to sleep
6) you mean the world to someone
7) if not for you, someone may not be living
8) you are special and unique
9) someone that you don't know even exist loves you
10) when you make a biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it
11) when you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look: you most likely turned your back on the world
12) when you think you have no chance at getting what you want, you probably won't get it, but if you believe in yourself, you probably sooner or later will get it
13) always remember complements you received. forget about your the rude remarks
14)always tell someone how you feel about them. you will feel much better when they know.
15) if you had a great friend, take the time to let them know that they're great


cheers,
mademoiselleAngie :D

what would you do if this happened to you?

why did you say "i promise", in fact you're LYING behind them?
why did you say "I LOVE YOU" in fact you're cheating with someone else?
why did you say "i miss you so much" in fact you're making out with somebody else?
why did you say "i can't leave without you" in fact you're living with somebody else?
why did you say "i'm sorry, i won't do that anymore next time" in fact you always do the same thing and they don't know 'bout that?
why did you say "i always be there for you" in fact you are busy with your work?
why did you say "i need you", in fact you're begging someone else to be your boyfriend/girlfriend?

your mouth doesn't say anything, just BULLSHIT!
you are a BIG FAT LIAR!

once upon a time, a boy love a girl.
they had been together for six months.
and the boy was very confident that the girl is his life partner.
until one day, his heart was broken into pieces.
he lost contact with her
and the boy received a call from another guy who claimed that he was a husband of that girl.
and the guy asked the boy not to call her again.
despaired and miserable
and tears came out from his eyes.
he couldn't hide his feelings anymore.
six month later, he moved on, alone.

one day, the girl called him again.
he was surprised.
the girl asked him, "can we be together again? i made a mistake and i'm sorry".
the boy said, "what about your husband?"
and the girl said, "we're getting divorce".
but the boy refused the offer.
he was too much despaired to got back with the girl.

finally, seven months past.
the girl had a new boyfriend,
better than the boy.
and guess what, again,
the girl called the boy.
she asked him to be together again!
in fact, she had a relationship with another guy!
and this guy was very very very LOVE her!
and the guy didn't know 'bout that.
but, again, the boy refused her offer.
he said that she out of control!
the girl didn't think about his new boyfriend feeling.
and the boy left the girl.
with the pain and sadness..



hope you like my story,
realize..

-mademoiselleAngie-

this is it! my new blog! :D

hei guys!
i'm happy cuz my new blog has already done!
and i hope you guys will love my story :)

cheers,
ekanakecil.A