unexpected dream in unexpected story

he has a dream
and he was right when he said,
"you pro'ly won't like it"

he wants to join CA forces
in Vehicle Technician section
and he knows, i don't like that idea at the first place
why?
because it takes many risks
he has to shoot and be shot
fight
war
...
for worst, died

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i don't like army or forces stuff since i was a kid
there's too much blood, too much pain, too much gun
and i've watched many films about army or forces
and i know exactly the endings of that kind of story
sad, mostly
and i can imagine how this story ends. our story.

can you imagine, your close friends said that he/she wanna join the force?
this happened to me
and i feel sad about it

--

"what about me? we can't talk again," i said.
it's kinda broke his promise to me, about not to lose contact
"you just have to talk to my brother", he said.
"it's different, i rarely talked to him"
"don't worry. there's gonna be ways to communicate"
"this is sad", i said
"why so sad??"
"with whom i could share my crazy story?"
"oh cmon. you share those with yer friends too,"
"every single person is different. you are different from my friends and so they are,"
"not even yer best friends?"
"my best friends are disappear. they are busy with themselves".
you know what, from that point, i realized that i don't have anyone.
he is my best friend. the only best friend for now
and that's why i really sad when he said he wanted to join force
i lost all my best friends

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however,
that's his dream
unexpected one for me
maybe, he has made his choice
i always say to myself, "believe in your dreams, go for it and make it happens"
so, if it's really his dream, even though i am not really like it, as a friend, i should support him, whatever it is, how silly it is, how bad or sad it is.
i know this is hard, but i have no rights to stop him from his dream.


-A